Hiding

I have been kind of an hypocrite lately
I have been hiding my problems
Showing the world I am stronger
Than I actually am
I hide behind my smile
I hide behind my confidence
I hide behind the person I wish I was
But will never be
I realized hiding is not right
But am I wrong for it?
I hide to ensure
My problems won't engulf me
And maybe it is okay not to dwell
On my problems
Behind my smile
My heart isn't hurting
Behind my confidence
My mind isn't racing
And maybe it is easier to not let
My problems hurt me
So yes, I do strive for a better me
But I lack the strength
Of the person I portray
So no, I am not put together
Yet
I am not falling apart!

- Nirmohi