To My Future Self
Dear insecure, emotional, over-thinking young man
You have come a long way from back then
You have lost a lot - but had to realize 'who hasn't?'
Your strong will seemed to be mistaken a lot from your passion
Why weren't you truly ever satisfied
Your abandonment issues pushed away the potential of something everlasting
Constantly fighting the man in the mirror
Hopefully with your new life - you see things clearer
No one ever knew, with you, who they are going to get
You've missed out on a lot of good times wanting to talk
Instead of just letting it go and enjoying the time you had left
Your favorite pills were self-pity, self-indulgence, ignorance and regret
You never stopped to listen - stopped talking
Hopefully now you allow others' words to be said
Don't get me started on your lack of living
Missed out on a lot of trips, chances and opportunities
I hope now you have filled that void that is missing
You swore happiness was wealth, power, a line of respect
Little did you know it was the little things, the calm, the moments
The people and things in life worth it and willing to invest
You gave up on a few dreams, figured why fight?
Countless times your mind would just run, keep you up all night
You were so afraid of success, honestly, I never knew why
You never freed that little boy trapped - stuck in his father's grasp
He was begging for freedom, you left him stuck inside
Everyday was another day you thought was your time
I hope you live now
I hope you see how beautiful life truly is
I hope you found this letter
I needed tow rite this letter to you
So you can see how far you have come
You can see that change is real
You can see all that you have become
An identity
A man you should be proud of
No matter what challenges you were faced with
Those obstacles were needed
Needed to make it to this me
Thank those who have trusted you in this journey
Thank your experiences and your lessons
No matter how bad the experiences were
They were needed in your past
So
Dear future self
Please understand, I am sorry.
For all that I have put you through
The truth remains - that without me
Just know
There would be no you
- Nirmohi
You have come a long way from back then
You have lost a lot - but had to realize 'who hasn't?'
Your strong will seemed to be mistaken a lot from your passion
Why weren't you truly ever satisfied
Your abandonment issues pushed away the potential of something everlasting
Constantly fighting the man in the mirror
Hopefully with your new life - you see things clearer
No one ever knew, with you, who they are going to get
You've missed out on a lot of good times wanting to talk
Instead of just letting it go and enjoying the time you had left
Your favorite pills were self-pity, self-indulgence, ignorance and regret
You never stopped to listen - stopped talking
Hopefully now you allow others' words to be said
Don't get me started on your lack of living
Missed out on a lot of trips, chances and opportunities
I hope now you have filled that void that is missing
You swore happiness was wealth, power, a line of respect
Little did you know it was the little things, the calm, the moments
The people and things in life worth it and willing to invest
You gave up on a few dreams, figured why fight?
Countless times your mind would just run, keep you up all night
You were so afraid of success, honestly, I never knew why
You never freed that little boy trapped - stuck in his father's grasp
He was begging for freedom, you left him stuck inside
Everyday was another day you thought was your time
I hope you live now
I hope you see how beautiful life truly is
I hope you found this letter
I needed tow rite this letter to you
So you can see how far you have come
You can see that change is real
You can see all that you have become
An identity
A man you should be proud of
No matter what challenges you were faced with
Those obstacles were needed
Needed to make it to this me
Thank those who have trusted you in this journey
Thank your experiences and your lessons
No matter how bad the experiences were
They were needed in your past
So
Dear future self
Please understand, I am sorry.
For all that I have put you through
The truth remains - that without me
Just know
There would be no you
- Nirmohi
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