This Negativity

I punish myself for having thoughts of negativity
That minus signage imprinted deep in my psyche
As mood that rule my days and nights take hold of me
I can't say it's a feeling I like

The positive is here, but only marginally
It hides away until the time is right
And usually the moon has powerful influences
That drive my mood, and secure my daily plight

Wherever I am positioned, it has a hold on me
Determines how I wake and how I feel
Some say that I must just get over it
But the height it has attained is too damn real

How does something so distant have such impact?
Where do I find that positivity?
When my mind feels like it is broken, maybe cracked
I am sure that it will be the death of me

This negativity!

- Nirmohi