The Expression Of My Beloved

Pain.... It's more than a feeling
More than something that hurts
It's everything.
It fills my heart to the core
A merciless thing
It knows no bounds
Shows no remorse
Pain grows stronger every waking minute
Everyday I die a little inside
It's unbearable
This isn't what I wanted
Why should I deserve such a burden?
I have done nothing wrong, so why
Do I feel this way?
I tried to be there; everyday
Why can't I ever get a break?
Am I a bad person?
An evil human?
So why do I deserve this?
Everyday I dream of you
Everyday I need you
You are in my grasp; yet
I don't want to feel this way
Not anymore.

-Nirmohi