EVerything Is Wrong

I have got mental issues
I can't explain how I feel
Too many tissues
My battle wounds may heal
But my mind will never be the same
They all say it's in my head
I guess I am the one to blame
I still remember when I cut myself
I hate my entire life
They say it's not real
I just miss the feel of that pain
I can't even hold down a meal
I wish I would all end
I just want to be normal
But instead, I am just abnormal
I have already lost my own self
Please somenone just take the voices out of my head
Someone come save me from the monster I have become
I just want to lie in my bed and be dead
My entire body is just numb
I wish it weren't true
But sometimes I just want to go and disappear
My life isn't worth even a few pennies
Wish I didn't have to cry but there is already one tear
One becomes two
Two becomes three
Three turns to four
Four turns into many more
My entire life feels like a chore
When you hear the demon inside of me roar
You already know it's too late
Everyone I touch I hurt
My only escape is writing
But even that is failing me
This is just my fate
I am going to sit here and keep fighting
This is my final plea
Where is God when you need him the most
I am about to find out if he is real
I feel I am just walking around like a ghost
It's like no one can see me but it's no big deal
I don't want to be me
I guess I should just lie down and bleed
Forget everyone and everything
There is no hope anymore
When you come to find me all you will see is blood soaked sheets!

- Nirmohi