I Fear Myself

I lie on the bed soaking the pillow with my tears
I try to remember what is it that I exactly fear
Is it the passing time or the emotions I can't show?
Is it the mistakes I have made
Or The fact that I cannot bring the past back?
What is it I am afraid of?
Why am I feeling so scared?
Is it the people I have hurt
Or the people who have hurt me?
Am I afraid of everything that I can't seem to see?
Is it the possibility that my life will end in a tragedy?
What is it that I fear the most?
What do my eyes say I am scared of?
Is it the sun that sets but won't seem to rise?
Is it the hope that I have which always seems to die?
Is it the trust of a person I cannot begin to grasp?
Is it all the memories of my horrid past?
Is it me?
Can it possibly be that the thing I fear most is the thing can't be?
The things that I try to understand?
The me that I try to be when I am feeling sad?
The person I am expected to be?
Is that what I fear?
I think the thing I fear the most is me!

- Nirmohi